Where the Happily Ever Afters Are Always In Color

 Day 175

12.28.2010

Those of you who have been following this blog may have noticed that from time to time its more about my life than my writing. Well my life impacts my writing A LOT. This is more of a “life” post.

I have a problem. (“A” problem I know most of you will say). Okay I have several problems that often make me wonder what it’s like to be normal, but this particular problem is screwing with me right now.

There are a several things I need to do:

  • Renew my drivers license
  • Sort through and shred at least 4 years worth of settled bills and statements
  • Clean out our one closet
  • Call my grandmother
  • Take my car into the shop
  • Finish work on the preliminary edits for my manuscript
  • Stop eating my weight in pizza, snickers, cookies and burgers at every possible moment
  • Search for some cheap round trip flights to the east coast. 
  • Vacuum
  • Fold a serious mountain of clothes
  • Take a serious mountain of clothes and shoes to Goodwill

And the responsible adult in me is wondering why all of these things aren’t done yet.

My bill paying job was really crazy between the months of September and last week ( i know last week isnt a month.), my dude changed jobs twice and then the holidays set in. I’m exhausted, my weight is all over the place and mostly heading upwards and I’m stressed about four trips I would like to take in the first half of 2011 which I may not have the funds to do.

NOW, I’m on vacation. My brother comes into town tomorrow just for a day, but after that I still have four days of vacation and I cannot make myself relax. I’ve been staying up late, getting up early and all but pacing around my apartment giving my manuscript the side eye. I do this all the time. Deny myself rest, while also putting off the things I need to do. Then I look at the clock and the anxiety starts to kick in F-ing up my ability to be productive or sleep even more.

Both of my parents have an insane work ethics. I grew up watching my father sleep a few hours a night, grabbing odd bits of shut eye here and there in the car while waiting for my mother to come out of the bank or in his leather recliner on the odd occasions that our house was quiet. I like being busy and I like working hard, but I have the hardest time shutting it off. Even as I type this I’m dreading just how late I’m going to be up tonight because I wont be able to sleep.

Is part of it the ADHD? Yeah. Is part of it the marathon of the First 48 that is more interesting than ANYTHING I could possibly be doing at the moment? Hells yeah. But most of it I feel is guilt. I know it sounds crazy, but I feel guilty when I’m doing nothing. Even when I catch up on much needed sleep and am grateful to feel rejuvenated, there’s always this tiny or sometimes thunderously loud voice in the back of my head saying “Ya know, you could have gotten a lot done in those 8 hours.”

The most annoying part is all of these things will get done. I’m not about to look at my publisher and say “Oops didn’t do my edits.” and I will vacuum because our carpet is kinda gross, but I would LOVED to avoid the stress and anxiety during it all.

    I know what I need to do. I need to eat better, because heartburn and gluten bloat have been known to wake me up at 2 am. I need to exercise more because that always seems to knock me out at the end of the day and I need to stop beating myself up. I’m on vacation. I have no kids. My bills are paid. My boyfriend is deep in the world of WoW. I’m allowed to relax. Now I just need to do it.

    When all of my problems are solved, I’d love to get a tattoo of either Tsuru. ?

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     Day 167

    12.20.2010

    So I say things and very rarely they work out the way I want them to, but in this case things worked up pretty damn good.

    A few weeks ago I signed a contract with Bold Strokes Books, the company I have been waiting to work with. Please see the awesomeness below.


    “Bold Strokes Books is pleased to announce the acquisition of Rebekah Weatherspoon’s new erotic paranormal romance, Better Off Red: Vampire Sorority Sisters Book 1, scheduled for release in 2011 from Bold Strokes Books…”

    You can read more about my awesome book and the awesomeness to come here. (I don’t actually think I’m all that awesome)

    My boyfriend thought I had somehow backdated the future and past, or something like that, so that this announcement would actually line up with my previous comment about “hopefully knowing something by Dec 20th”. Pure coincidence. Sweet, glorious coincidence. I’m really excited and humbled by this opportunity and beyond psyched to work with this team.

    Now I’ll be blogging what I can about edits and promotion, my nights up crying as I stress over my edits and promotion. If you couldn’t tell already, I’m a big stresser. In the meantime, please do check out the other authors Bold Strokes Books represents. Of course I haven’t read every single titles, but I have LOVED the ones I have been able to get my hands on.

    I will end by saying, I was able to find these sneakers, in my size. I bought them as a Christmas gift to myself and they should arrive by Wednesday. HOOORAY!

    Happy Holidays Everyone.

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     Day 166

    12.19.2010
    I HAVE HUGE NEWS!
     
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     Day 159

    12.12.2010

    The past week kicked my ass. Work was brutal and the boyfriend’s new work schedule is insane. I found these sneakers. TOTALLY wanted to buy them, but couldn’t find them anywhere in my size. It was devastating. I had very little time to write, but I did set up an author page for myself on facebook HERE and I attended my first RWA meeting here in LA.

    The folks in the LARA chapter were so welcoming and I heard some great stories about some really amazing and inspiring journeys to publication.  I have a few things to get done writing-wise this week. Let’s hope I actually get them done.

    In other news, I saw TANGLED and absolutely loved it. This is my favorite song from the soundtrack. And here’s another picture I rather enjoyed.

    (art by will murai that reminds me of my ginger.?)
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     Day 153

    12.06.2010
    I am going slowly out of my mind. Intense writer’s block and too many carbs.
    (it doesn’t get much crazier than this)
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     Day 134

    11.16.2010

    I haven’t update this blog in almost a month because, guess what, I’m still waiting to hear back from a particular agency. I should know something by December 20th and hopefully this will turn into a blog about how my awesome book is about to be published. I’m 20,000 words into my next book and seeing more and more that I really am a sucker for a happy ending.

    In the past 28 days the following things have been consuming my thoughts and my time. Some of them actually have to do with my writing.

    laundry. college loans. my car. virgin america. the hampton inn. black nail polish. dogs. kittens. homemade pie. new jeans. old jeans. the cost of jeans. car insurance. boardwalk empire. jackie, evie, john III and jacob.  cartoons. screenplays. my imdb STARmeter. old friends. crappy friends. reese peanut butter cups. nipple piercings. pregnancy. cheese. lover unleashed. lavryle spencer. /s/. irene. getting my money back from jae. false advertising. cover art. mainstream success. wolf tales. mother-in-laws.

    tattoos. the swedish. giada at home. domestic violence. the woman at ralphs who made me a delicious turkey club. google maps. gluten. back fat. coupons. good old-fashioned lover boy. my morning jacket. finding the woman who lets her pug use the rug in front of the elevator as its toilet. black on asian racism. wonder woman. gem stone appraisal. snickers. debt. starbursts. jordans. a dark room of my very own. liars. melissa etheridge. the crazies. sarah palins vocab. amazon.com. evil wylie. kissing. Airborne (1993). j-walking. mochi. lima beans. food in general. light bulbs. npr. acne. ginger and camila. fandango. stress fractures. #unfat2010. def leppard. ABBA. Prince. front end damage. vegas. arson. neville. green apples. kick boxer. pre-marital affairs. food poisoning. frontin’. the art of being fancy. cards. ikea. bikes. 10-South. snow. dishwashers. trust funds. ethnic nannies.  lexus’s limited engagement. adderall. doing it. potlucks. ms. HAIR.

    oprah. unemployment. key grips and electricians. my sister. sloan parker. baba. parent/teacher conferences. NYC. Huffington Post. christmas trees. bacon. oil based lube. tantus toys. el mac. adam hughes. my boyfriend’s mohawk. triathlons. single dads. lumberjacks. firetrucks. rite aid. the shake weight. angelia jolie’s face. tera. female ejaculate. amber rose.teaching. brie larson. radio shack. nelson franklin. scooter. poop. SUV hybrids. africa. the homeless. black presidents. natural hair. lip gloss. feet. bald women. rick james. oranges. call of duty. fat stupid garbage. the pedo bear. facebook. humility. crayola. boots. vasily. Dora voice over disputes. TMZ. auto-trader.com. regular show. stoners. t-pain and toshiba. russia. beards. wolves. the general. sleep. current tv. annie and oksana ?.

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     Day 106

    10.19.2010

    Busy with bill paying work. Submitted a short little something for an anthology. Waiting. Writing depressing book #2 is on hold for upbeat book #3 (which I supposed will end up being book #2 once its finished.). Decided against doing NaNoWriMo. Boardwalk Empire is my favorite Fall television program. Nothing else to report. Terribly sad. Still waiting.

    [I'm not actually reading 1776. Started it back in '06, left my copy at my dad's house, reclaimed it this past July. I think leaving it up here will remind me to actually open it.]

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     Day 94

    10.06.2010

    Its been a while since I’ve updated, mostly because I’ve been going through more wacky adventures with ADHD. I love to sleep, add working full time and being easily distracted by pretty colors and whatever is on [adult swim], and you have a Bekah who is like a 3 year old on speed when it comes to focusing. It also didn’t help that there was a South Park marathon on the other day completely dedicated to Butters. I love Butters.

    After WEEKS I’ve finally, seem to have “gotten my groove” with my second book. My main character is essentially my complete opposite in terms of her natural reactions to the world around her, so it’s been a challenge working through her emotions. A challenge and a learning experience. And thank god, because her mental torture is keeping my mind off the replies I’m still waiting for.

    I’m all for some good old fashioned patience, but some days I just want to throw myself on the floor and roll around whining. I’ve done the rolling and the whining, just on the couch. Not the floor. I’ve “met” more helpful writers and agent types through twitter and engaged in some very informational/encourage twitchats. They’ve helped ease some of the query process pain. It really is like applying to college, but this time I actually care if I get in. That sounds awful, doesn’t it?

    I will continue to write, network, read, stalk my favorite authors… watch cartoons and fight this sudden urge to pack on winter pounds since the temperature in LA has suddenly dropped. Cookies are good.

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     Day 82

    09.24.2010

    I’m still waiting on replies, so no tales of rejection woe this time around, but I still have things to share.

    It’s been a really long week, but a good week. I hopped in to a few great chats with other authors and agents on twitter and got to hear my 5 month old nephew mumble nonsense on the phone. I added a bunch of books to my to-read list, which is pretty much a book geeks foreplay. AM I WRONG??

    I would also like to get these sneakers for my Wonder Woman shelf. Not to wear.

    Today, I came home to a wonderful package from my friend, Margie. A group of us, who have been buddies since kindergarten, started a Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants if you will. GO AHEAD. LAUGH. We are all drastically different sizes, (starting at 16 and sliding all the way down to what I’m pretty sure is a child’s medium) so the pants thing made no sense. We send a giant red photo album around and fill it with deeply personal letters and pictures of our lives since we last had the book. Margie had the book for a year, but she added some great stuff and has been forgiven. I wrote my letter and it will go out with some pictures of my boyfriend wearing a really small hat and a sample of my writing on Monday morning. It’s corny, but in the three years we’ve been sending the book around, its been pretty cool to see how things have changed in such a short amount of time.

    Tonight I’m writing. Tomorrow, more writing and maybe going to Zuma Beach. Sunday I’m going to the West Hollywood Book Fair which should be great, then watching some fooootball. 

    Writey-wise, I’m 6k into my next book. Hopefully that will turn into muchmorek by Sunday night.

    HI NEW FOLLOWERS. It’s lovely to see the two of you. ? Enjoy my favorite song of the week.

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     Day 74

    09.16.2010

    My bill paying job has been pretty busy this week so I haven’t had a lot of energy to blog in addition to my other writing adventures. I’ve had one partial requested and then rejected, but I press forward, spirits brightened by the fact that I came home to a dish-free sink and a happy boyfriend with a clean-shaven head. He looks super bald.

    Here are some things I’ve learned/thought of since my last post in no particular order. And a picture I like. The artist is Ben Newman.

    - I’m confused by writers who become enraged with agents who reject them. They said no to your query. They didn’t call you ugly to your face, which hurts, trust me. I’ve learned A LOT from a couple agents who have rejected my query and they are actually pretty nice people. I hope to actually meet them some day.

    - If you email people, more often than not, they email you back. 

    - Not everyone should give advice (I knew this before, but it’s come up a lot this week)

    - Playing with my characters in my head is a fantastic way to pass the time while sitting in traffic in Beverly Hills. Lil’ Wayne, Does It Offend You, Yeah?,  and Chromeo only add to the pleasure of it all.

    - Patience does pay off.

    - Even when you walk into a really awkward situation you will be able to pull something from it that you can use in your writing. An old man named Stewart weirded the hell out of me this week and he will show up somewhere in my work. I can guarantee it.

    - You will get fired if you sit across from your boss and don’t do any work for two weeks. This has nothing to do with queries

    -There are some really nice people out there internet land and I enjoy finding them. Some times they point you toward helpful things like agents to query, good books, home remedies and recipes. And some times they just offer a virtual hand to hold.

    -Current TV has hilarious programming that makes me laugh, smile and think a little harder.

    Hi new followers. ?

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