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08.09.2013

I’m terrible at being an author. Or terrible at being an organized author. 9 days ago– Yeah, 9. I told you I’m terrible– I started posting a line every day from At Her Feet on facebook, tumblr, and twitter. Why didn’t I post it here too? Cause I suck. Here’s what I’ve posted so far. I’ll update it every day, for the month of August. Also keep a heads up on tumblr and twitter and facebook, I’ll be giving away books!

I’m previewing AT HER FEET , one line at a time. :)

Day 1: “Shit, she could lead me around Hawaii on a leash, naked as a baby if wants.”

Day 2: “I think she’s about to lecture me on back-talking. Instead she takes my chin in her hand and kisses me.”

Day 3: “I shuffle to the floor and in a heartbeat, my head is under her skirt.”

Day 4: “You can get more if your nephew never walks again,” Holly says.

Day 5: “I realize she means for me to sleep alone again, and I’m disappointed, but this time I keep my mouth shut.”

Day 6: “What’s the point of lotioning up your naked plaything if you’re not gonna linger on the butt?”

Day 7: “He tilts my phone and looks closer at the picture. “The duckies are cute, but you need a wax, girl.’”

Day 8: “I squirm some more, trying to get her fingers a little farther down.”

Day 9: “‘You’re naked in a cage on the side of the freeway, and you need me to comes save you.’ That’s how he says hello.”

Day 10: “I feel her fingers on me next, cool with lube as she runs a slippery glob up and down my crack.”

Day 11:  “I cry out, lifting my hips off the bed, but my shifting doesn’t get me any closer to what I want.”

Day 12: “I’m going to take care of you when we get home, little girl. What I want to do to you we cannot do in public.”

Day 13: “But I love you. Please reconsider.”

Day 14: “I see how you’ve gotten so far in marketing.”

Day 15: “Wow, thank you. That’s-thank you.”

Day 16: “She warms my ass with a controlled spanking and makes my pussy swell with every stroke of her tongue.”

Day 17: “I’m starting to understand about the wanting.”

Day 18: I look up into her deep-brown eyes and swallow as that smile touches the corner of her lips.

Day 19: The tears come so fast, the kind that come so thick and hot you don’t even attempt to wipe them away

Day 20: “Oh my God. Hi,” pops out of my mouth first. I’m shocked but pleased, and that overwhelms much of my brain.
Day 21: My hand drifts to Pilar’s thigh, and soon the soothing feeling of her skin helps calm my thudding heart.

Day 22: There’s no need for her to move because in a few minutes I’m going to ask her if we can do it again.

Day 23: Everything about her is round and plump, from her cheeks to her large breasts to her hips. Her whole body is inviting.

Day 24: Her arms are around me, and instantly, I feel better.

Day 25: “That’s it. Good girl. Ride me just like that,” she says, and I know the pace suits her.

Day 26: She’s fighting a smile as she lightly takes my chin in her hand. “Is there something I can help you with, baby?”

Day 27: I can’t see straight and birds are singing in my ears. My butt feels great.

Day 28: “Son of bitch.” She sucks in a breath through her teeth. “You have a gorgeous pussy, Suzanne. And look how wet you are.”
Day 29: She touches my knee lightly before pulling her hand away. “You’re not in trouble.”

Day 30: I was happy to submit to Laurel’s hand, or flog, or paddle, but I needed more. I needed her affection with my subservience.
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It seems I’ve been tapped for The Next Big Thing Blog Hop. YAY!
The purpose of the hop is to find out what an author is working on and next and maybe get linked to authors you aren’t familiar with to hear about their next project. Yvonne Heidt and Jeffrey Ricker.  I feel special :) So here’s what I’m working on next. 

What is the working title of your book? 
Soul To Keep: Vampire Sorority Sisters: Book 3
 
Where did the idea come from for the book?
Vampire Sorority Sisters: Book 1 and 2 :)
 
What genre does your book fall under? 
Erotica Paranormal Romance
Which actors would you choose to play your characters in a movie rendition?
Jill in my head is Fefe Dobson and Miyoko/”Tokyo” is model/actress Sayaka Isoyama
 
What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?
What would you do if finding the love of your life meant sacrificing your soul?
What is the longer synopsis of your book??
Oh, I haven’t written it yet. I hate synopsisessss. Essentially, after seventy years as a vampire, Tokyo meets the one human who only wants her for her body, with out the aide of a blood bond. In order to win over college junior, Jill,  Tokyo must face her past and the crippling PTSD she suffered as a human during World World II. She must show Jill her true personality and expose herself to an evil that could kill them both.
 
Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency??
Hopefully my publisher, Bold Strokes Books, will be into it.
 
How long did it take you to write the first draft of your manuscript?
Uh, eight weeks? Let’s go with eight weeks.
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Who or What inspired you to write this book?
Jill popped up up in book two as such a vivid character. She’s sweet, but so annoying and I love her. I knew her and Tokyo could be an amazing couple if they could get over some crucial issues. Throw in some vampire sex and well, you know.
 
What else about your book might pique the reader’s interest??
Murder? I’m going to kill some people in this book. :) There will also be some fun sex.
That’s all I got.
 
Next Wednesday check out Zoe Archer‘s blog and read up on her next big thing!
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 Day 922

12.27.2012
BOOK BIRTHDAY SURPRISE! 

 

Blacker Than Blue is now available in paperback and ebook from Bold Strokes Books. Go ahead, spend your holiday money. Load that ereader. :)

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 Day 907

12.12.2012
Suzy and Pilar finally have a cover! 
 

Let me stop with the finally. I wrote this thing over the summer and it already has a cover. That’s some DAMN FAST turn around if you ask me. Yes, At Her Feet is a BDSM erotic romance, but the cover works very well for these characters. This story is more about emotional submission… and spankings, than floggers and crops and chains. I wanted to stay away from handcuffs or crops and the like. Suzy and Pilar are both pretty femme and Suzy, like myself, loves pink. EVERYTHING’S PINK! My publisher was nice enough to listen to all of my pink related begging. :)  I’ll report back as soon as they have a release date. Here are my leading ladies if you need a reminder.

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 Day 862

10.29.2012

You’d think I’d forgotten all about this blog. Ha. I didn’t. I’ve just been busy. I’ll skip the details and jump right to the news.

Blacker Than Blue is days away from going to press. I had a hell of time editing it and I have to say I think I could write at least four stories for Benny and Cleo. I love them as a couple. :) In January, right before its release, I’ll be doing a book/t-shirt giveaway, so keep your eyes peeled if you like winning stuff.

Once that was done and off to the magical land of paperbacks and ebooks, I finished my first/final round of revisions of At Her Feet. If you’ve been following my blog, you might be asking what At Her Feet is. Well, my publisher was happy to buy Suzy & Pilar off my hands, but after batting some ideas around, we went with a title change. At Her Feet should be out some time near fall 2013. I think. I’ll report back when I know for sure.

And that’s it, really. I’m working on some non-romance related things. I might take a class. You’re never too old to further your education. When I get back to the romancing, I have two hetero romances I want to write and then there’s the next Vampire Sorority Sister novel to research, write and then beg my publisher to buy. I’ll report back when I have concrete plans. In the meantime, Happy NaNoWriMo for everyone participating. I’ll leave you with Melanie Fiona’s Stop My Heart. I heard it in Crate&Barrel; last week and now I’m obsessed with her. ?
 

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 Day 758

07.21.2012

First let me say, I’m having trouble picking a Tokyo/Miyoko for my Vampire Sorority Series. Check out this post here if you want to give me your two pennies worth of opinion. I need feedback people.

Updates!!!! Here’s where I’ve been. Here’s what I’ve been doing.

- The Advocate Magazine asked lil old me to contribute to this month’s I Advocate section. Seeing myself in a magazine period is amazing. Being featured in The Advocate is just mind blowing. Pick up a copy on newsstands now. :) 

- I was also featured over at Romance Cooks, sharing a recipe that always makes me think of my vampire queen Camila from Better Off Red. Check it out. Make some cookies.

- I’m taking FOREVER to edit Suzy & Pilar. I’m not under a deadline with it so I’m taking my sweet ass time. Eeeep.

- Next week (July 25, and 26) I’ll be loitering at the annual RWA conference in Anaheim. If you’re there and you see me, say hi. I’m wicked nice. Really.

- I also realized that I missed the two year mark for this blog. Ooops. I’ll do a big TWO YEAR post soon. Feel free to listen to my new favorite song while you wait.

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 Day 736

06.29.2012
even in small town New Hampshire, look at this diversity.

So I went home for a wedding. A good friend of mine from elementary school married a great guy. They served bottomless lemonade mojitos. Really, it was great. I got to see my parents. I met a friend’s newborn and was over the moon that the kid isn’t ugly. I slept like the dead in my high school bed. Our local bookstore, Water Street Bookstore had me down to sign copies of The Fling.

My mom bought me three books because she’s awesome. My dad and I hung out and watched Jerry Springer. I ate a lot of food and didn’t gain a pound. I went out drinking with my great guy friends. I found myself on the beach THREE TIMES! I came up with a wellness plan with my best friend. She also helped me brainstorm character and plot points for my next book because she too is awesome. I went for walks and spent time with my neighbors who treat me like one of their own.

Here’s what I didn’t do – I didn’t write. I didn’t write a good goddamn thing. I’ll be honest and say I left my laptop at my apartment. One less thing to deal with while going through security. I thought about writing on my phone while I was sitting on my parents’ couch, but when Springer’s on and you’ve got a good book in your lap, it’s just asking a whole lot to dig back into your own story. That required brain cells I wasn’t willing to give up. When I got back to L.A. it took me DAYS to find my stride again. Finally, last Friday I was able to get myself back together. I’ve since squeezed out 10,000 words on Suzy & Pilar. The last scene I worked on was a tough one, but I finished it and pushed on to a great sex scene that flowed rather smoothly. Now I think I’m in the homestretch. I might even finish it this weekend. Maybe.


In other news, with the end of season two of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, I sat down and watched every episode of Avatar: The Last Airbender. And then The Legend of Korra premiered and I feel like it’s taken up so much space in my heart. So much space. I might love her more than the ponies. If you’ve seen my tumblr, you know.

In other other new, even though I knew about it, I feel I’ve officially discovered Korean Pop music. Or K-Pop. I’m now obsessed with Girls’ Generation aka SNSD. This song will definitely be on Suzy & Pilar‘s playlist. Good times.

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 Day 706

05.30.2012

Okay, so the other day I said I wasn’t going to blog at length about BDSM here. JUST KIDDING!

In working on Suzy & Pilar, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I want their relationship to come across to a reader who knows nothing about the kinky lifestyle. I want to tell an honest story that balances the joys of expressing ones sexuality and the challenges one might face when that sexual life clashes with your real/professional life. I’m also tackling Suzy’s struggle to balance the joys of being with Pilar and keeping her own well-being at the forefront of her priorities.

But that’s only part of the reason I’m talking about it here and yes it has to do with writing about race. In a way. See, I love to read BDSM novels. I have nearly worn the covers of my Sleeping Beauty series, but a lot of the stories I’ve read leave me scratching my head. I find characters doing things that I honestly find unsafe and a little nuts. Not in a “oh I would never let someone hang me from the rafters by my nipples” sort of way, but in a “wait don’t you worry about your actual safety, your actual mental health?” kind of way.

I’ve read about a lot of Doms, male and female, who are just assholes. Not dominant lovers, but pure assholes that use intimidation and circumstance to get their partners to submit. Most of these pairings have involved white couples. A few have involved mixed races couples, but the Dom is always white. I don’t do assholes. These issues have been rolling around in my head for some time, in fiction and in real life as I’ve heard horror stories about such Doms, but yesterday writer Mikki Kendall, who you should follow really just cause, started a discussion on women of color (WOC) and BDSM kink. (women of color includes all non-white women). The discussion does appear to be centering around WOC as submissives at this point, though there are many non-white Dommes in the community as well. In Blacker Than Blue I write a black Mistress in control of a white submissive. It’s a very loving relationship, I promise. I try not to apply my own experiences and thoughts to others. Everyone’s sex life is different, but what Mikki and the others who responded to her post, had to say really struck a cord with me. Here is Mikki’s original post and my response.

karnythia:

I’ve been reading all of the talk around 50 Shades of Grey, & noting how often developing a BDSM relationshionship in romantica/erotica is written as though sex comes before trust & then running into convos on & offline that center around the idea that kink is something white women do. That being sex positive is a movement that requires you to discuss your sex life with all & sundry & be white to boot or you’re a problem & not a person.

Somehow the fact that WOC not only have kinky sex, but enjoy it is a hard concept for some folks to grasp. And things get more complicated when you factor in our high rates of sexual assault, violence, & cultural norms that mean our sexuality is often something we share with partners but not with the public for our own safety. WOC can figure as props in the sexual fantasies of others, but people seem to think that we don’t deserve any agency over ourselves for our own pleasure. And that makes conversations about sex in general & kink in specific really hard to have, especially when it comes to kink, how WOC may choose to engage in it & whether or not we utilize the same spaces for connections as white people.

Our voices are erased from so many media outlets (see the casual moments of racism in 50 Shades of Grey and how little has been said about that), and what we speak of when we do speak to each other is often not for public consumption. But not talking to or for outsiders isn’t the same as not talking at all.

So, let’s talk about what it means to stand at the corner of Madonna/Whore as Mammy/Jezebel & how that impacts our expressions of our sexuality. Let’s talk about why sites like Fetlife being underpopulated with WOC doesn’t mean WOC aren’t interested in kink. And let’s talk about what a cultural history of being unrapeable legally might do to the idea of sexual freedom. If we’re seen as whores from birth regardless, what do we do to own our sexuality? How do we navigate kink in our minds & with our bodies? How do we find partners & what do we disclose & when? For those of us in kinky relationships, what does it mean to play? Do we attend munches/classes/parties? Are those environments safe for us? And what about things like race play, how do we reconcile ourselves to that if it is or isn’t part of our kink?

 rebekahloves:

ive given this issue a lot of thought recently. my kink life started with a connection with one person, not through a munch, or a play party, or an online link up on a kink website. ive since attended play parties and munches and joined kink websites and i have to say not many of these places are spaces that make WOC feel safe and this is a problem. a KEY element of the BDSM lifestyle is trust. ive been approached by many white men because of their attraction to my picture. these are the same white men who chose to ignore that fact i am already taken. this information is right next to that picture. these are the same white men who collect black female submissives on fetlife and the same men who think that my fantasies involve being treated like the “black beast that i am”. its crazy. its backward, and for me, it’s not safe.

as i read more erotic fiction, fiction that starts with intense bondage scenes after a two second conversation between strangers im left thinking, who the hell is conducting their sex life like this. i know its fantasy. i know its fiction, but what message is it sending to people outside of the lifestyle. there’s a different between getting off on pain and putting your life in danger. if you met a guy in a bar would you really just go home with him and let him tie you up? no? then would you do it just because he says he’s a Dom? or because he’s rich? or because he seems to know what’s best for you? that’s crazy. that’s not BDSM. that’s abuse.

here’s the thing about submission, if im going to give my mind AND my body to you, i have to know that you are interested in me as a person. i have to know that you are looking for the signs that i am being pushed too far and not because you don’t want to be accused of rape or that you might literally break me. i need to know what you are respecting me, loving me and doing everything you can to help us both express our sexual needs. and you need to know that simply saying “you look so sexy dear” wont make my legs fall open.

this is nearly impossible if you make it known before i have even given you that trust that your only desire is procuring a WOC for your stock. that shit is not gonna fly. i live my life
with my safety at the forefront of my day to day. i don’t trust strangers. i face enough danger as is. do you know how afraid i am to get pulled over by LAPD? i don’t need to be bound and naked when that danger makes itself evident.

i’ve been pretty open about my kink life online, but the details aren’t for anyone but me and my partner. does that mean im not a legit member of the community? no. its just means i don’t want to talk to strangers about what exactly i do in my private time. you know why? because strangers like to take the little bits of information they do know about you, like the size of your cleavage or the color your skin, and use it to make judgements and further assumptions. they use that information to create their own fantasy with your image at the center (or most likely at the periphery) and that’s the wrong foot to start on.

so for me it’s definitely relationship first, kink second. i can put the kink on hold if my partner isn’t into it, but i can’t put my well-being on hold just to get off. i say this because there are people in the lifestyle and people interested in the lifestyle who take the approach the other way around.

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There was further discussion by other readers about the politics of being a WOC and being whipped by a white Dom in public forum, being paraded around as black chattel, etc, things that would test me far beyond my mental comfort zone. I must note that I have been in interracial relationships my whole romantic life and I guess technically I’m in one now. I don’t think that all non-POC are looking to degrade WOC like it’s their job. I’m saying it the actions of few that are ruining it for many.

Obviously my life is something I take seriously, but when I write I take my characters and their experiences seriously too. If other WOC don’t approach BDSM in a way that the larger collection of BDSM fiction is portraying then there is a disconnect, one that I can’t ignore. I’m still thinking this through. I’m wondering how and if the community will evolve, but I’m sharing this as food thought, for characters, and audience, and the people around you. 

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 Day 694

05.18.2012

I’m working on something a little different. A lot of my stories will have elements of domination and submission. Benny’s book Blacker Than Blue will center around her D/s relationship with her vampire. When I get around to writing Kina’s book she will prove to be quite the sexual Dominant in her relationships. Right now I’m working on a story that I’m calling Suzy & Pilar. I’ve picked Jamaican-Korean actress Tae Heckard for Suzy and Sara Ramirez for Pilar.

This story deals with a Mommy/little girl, D/s relationship. Since BDSM talk is not something everyone is comfortable with, I’ve written a much longer post on the story and posted it on my tumblr – rebekahloves.tumblr.com. Keep in mind that my tumblr is 18+/NSFW. Swing over there and check it out.

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